Defining

I want to be more than just a face in the crowd

Lost amongst the sea of innovatives, creatives, and reactives

Lost betwixt the drinkers and non-drinkers

Between the lovers and the friends

Between the laughter and the tears

Lost in the middle of the middle, neither here nor there

That no one will ever know

I want to show the world that I can be someone

Become someone

With a name, a voice, a dream

A dream into a thought

A thought into a plan

A plan into a masterpiece into a word into a sound

A sound from a voice

A voice from a name

I want to fall in love once

The REAL kinda love

The love that makes you want to breathe in shards and breathe out a stained glass window

The love that makes you stay up all night thinking about the next day, and the next, and the next

The love that makes you plan the days down to the second, but erase all the plans in favor of spontaneity

Where you know and they know

Where, in the end, all you need is a real friend

Like an angel with wings and

I want to taste the sweet edge of adrenaline,

Drive my car down a long winding highway

Reach the end of the middle, stop the car, and run the rest of the way

Run the race of a lifetime

Comfortably lost in the beauty of what could be

Comfortably found in the magic of possibility

I want to catch snowflakes on my nose

A different snowflake for each thought, each worry, each memory that keeps me awake at night

Externalize the feelings that torment my mind

Let them slide down the tips of my eyelashes over my eyelids

Splash on my red cheeks and pink lips

Taste the sky in my mouth

Let them melt onto my skin; dry in the heat of the winter sun

Hands so cold they're warm

Enjoying the white blanket before reality soils the edges

I want to let the rain wash away my tears

Tears for love lost, for dreams changed, for priorities altered

Because even Shakespeare's dynamic characters couldn't stay as they once were

Let those tears slip down my cheeks, for once, and disappear

Disappear into the clear, cloudless sky

As balloons would float

Carelessly

Until I’m left with nothing

Nothing but the dreams that remain

Dreans that belong not to a crowd, but to one person

One girl

Me